Well that dirty skank hoe AF showed up in the middle of the night last night. Unbelievable! I hate her stinkin guts

So here I am 14 dpo and so confused. I've continued to spot just a tiny bit everyday since Tuesday and then today almost nothing. Yesterday afternoon the nausea hit me and by bedtime I was throwing up.Today I feel nauseous and exhausted but haven't thrown up. I took a test this morning and it was negative. I left it on the counter and went to make breakfast and when I came back it was postive. Now I know the results are no good after 10 minutes so I'm not counting it but I've never had one turn postive before. I am trying to exhibit some self control for once and not go out and buy more right this minute. Which means I'll probably last another 5 minutes. HELP!

A little 12dpo fun

This afternoon I started with some lower abdominal cramping and tonight I had a small amount of spotting, just a tiny streak of brown (you know you wanted to know) AF is due to arrive Saturday. I'm not falling for it, I'd love to think its implantation bleeding, I might even play that one up in my mind for oh about 5 minutes but I also know that its more then likely just a trick and my 2ww insanity. Maybe I'll test on Friday just for fun, but then AF is sure to come once I've wasted the money for the stupid test.... oh but I do have that free one from my OPK :)

Prayer

I know that the two of you who read this probably already know about Kelly and her whole situation but please be in prayer over the next few weeks and days. I cannot imagine the worry and fear that is trying to take over her, I pray that God would bring His peace. She has been such an inspiration to so many of us and such a prayer warrior. Let's all return the favor and cover her and sweet Harper and Scott.

Heavy Hearted

Please be in prayer, my bestfriend just found out she had a miscarriage. She was not very far along but like a lot of you know that doesn't change the pain and the grief. I am heartbroken for her as both of us had been eachothers prayer warriors in this area. Please pray for her and for her husband. Thanks!

This morning I aced my ovulation test...haha. I got two nice blue lines on that baby. And I know its just an ovulation predictor but dang it feels good to see two lines. So good that I left it on the counter for awhile just to glance over at it every now and then while I got ready. And I tried to think that maybe this will be the two line month!

Thats all, thought all two of you might want to celebrate with me and my ovaries:)

Not Falling For It

I love how ovulation predictor kits come with that token pregnancy test that they just throw in just for kicks. Like "hey we are so sure you're going to get knocked up this month using these sticks that we'll throw in a complimentary pregnancy test" Well I'm not falling for it. All I need is one more pregnancy test laying around just begging me to pee on it. I'm not using it until I'm good and late and honestly what are the chances of that happening? My good old loving AF has been coming earlier and earlier these days, maybe this is God's way of keeping me sane during the two week wait.

Does anyone else try to trick themselves into actually being pregnant by telling yourself all month that "you just don't think this is the month" ? No just me?