In th homestretch of the 2ww. AF is due on Sunday. I am trying to take my thoughts captive and not let my mind and hopes run away from me

I'm frustrated. I went to schedule my post coital test earlier this week when I thought I was getting a surge and apparently my Dr failed to mention all of the instructions when he was on the phone with me a few weeks ago. Apparently you need to abstain for at least three days prior to the test. What self respecting infertile woman is abstaining from knocking uglies around they time they ovulate?!?? Not me so of course when the woman went through the pre-procedure checklist I totally failed when she said "and you haven't had sex in the last three days right?" and I said "umm if you don't count last night!" haha! She was the sweetest lady I have ever talked to at my Drs office, so sweet and helpful in fact that I might request her every time I call there! No seriously I just might. She was so apologetic and seemed genuinely sorry that my Dr is such a not into details guy. Don't get me wrong I love him to pieces and I know he will feel bad when he realizes but honestly he just is not a details guy. So the lady sent me a copy of the instructions for that and the HSG that I am going to have in two weeks. The thing that stinks is next month I am going to be out of town during ovulation again, and for a longer time so I really don't think there is any chance of getting in for this test until at least May. This is exactly what I was dreading about starting this whole infertility workup. Life is just too busy for shenanigans like this!

so I went away this weekend and had a fantastic time but no luck on getting my surge before I left and so far have yet to get a surge on the ops. So I dont know what is with that, I usually ovulate on day 12 or 13 and today is day 14. Maybe it is waiting for me to be home and have the day off so I can go in for the test.

In other news, two of my friends announced they are pregnant this weekend, one with her third and one with her second. I am excited for both of them but I'm not ready to be lapped a third time. Maybe in a few days I can write more about this. Just pray, I am trying not to let bitterness take root and be joyful in hope.

So I am due to ovulate sometime later this week/weekend which would be all fine and dandy except I am going out of town and its the weekend. So how exactly does one go in to their OB after doing the deed when a. its a Saturday or Sunday or b. you are out of town. So I am praying that I see my surge Thursday or Friday so I can skip on out of town and not put this whole thing on hold till next Month. This is precisely why I was dragging my feet about getting this infertility work up going, the whole Sex on a Schedule thing. It is hard enough for me to coordinate the rest of my life without adding my sex life into that.

Mixed Emotions

So we got the call on Monday that hubs semen analysis came back beautiful. Completely normal motility and morph and volume. I am so thankful that this was the case. I just kept praying that if something was going on that it would be with me. I don't know why it was so important to me. I guess because I knew he'd be devastated and upset and no amount of convincing would make him believe that I didn't blame him or think less of him. And if it was with him then we'd immediately be skipping a lot of steps and going straight to the hard treatments. And I was also assuming that it would be with me since I have good ole endometriosis on my side. But my blood work came back completely normal. I guess that was is an answer to prayer and a blessing but if I was going to have something come up in the search for the cause of this infertility I would have wanted it to be in this blood work stage. Maybe a nice hormone imbalance *not downplaying that at all* but something that I could take some pills or a suppository or something. But no dice. And maybe every test and every step will bring up nothing, maybe this is going to be unexplained or maybe its just going to take a really long time without there ever really being a reason. So next step is checking out the cervical mucus during ovulation and a HSG.... bring on the fun!!

Super Semen Sample Day!

So the SA appointment went well. Hubs had been adamant about securing the sample there vs at home. I tried to tell him it would be much easier at home and a lot less awkward and so on and so forth but he was so hung up on having to carry the little cup into the building and what if he got pulled over on the way there or what if it spilled. I finally convinced him to just do it at home and its a good thing I did because when we got there and saw the "collection rooms" his face was hysterical! He said there is no way he could have gone through with it if he had waited to do it there. I have no idea when we'll get the results back, anyone whose been through all this have any idea?

Hubs goes for his SA tomorrow. Cross your fingers.